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Saturday, December 1, 2007
What have happened to me recently? Somehow i felt rather depressed deep down in my heart,because i feel that i'm very useless. I've no speciality. All i know is to talk some meaningless craps and that's all i know. I sucks at my work,cuz i'm very slow in understanding things therefore very often,always cuz trouble to teacher & friends around me to teach me. Sometimes,i really envy those ppl like pf,vivien,celest they all cuz they understand things very fast although they aren't as attentive as me during lesson besides pf. Today I suddenly realized i'm actually of no use when doing a group project cuz i can't bring out anything even though deep within me,i really wish to help out abit...even if its just abit...i'll be satisfied. Today,after lecture at 4pm, me,chicken,qi hua,wee kiat,pf went to do our OBC project everyone seems to know what to do except me.Chicken & pf are using their knowledge acquired from lessons to discuss,wk & qi hua are searching for info. Only me sitting down there doin nth and listen to the discussion between chicken & pf. I was then thinking how can i suggest anything...juz anything even if it's not that significant to add into their discussion to help out abit. But in the end i was searching through my mind of what hv i learnt? And i've got "NOTHING" in my mind. So for the whole session i just sat down there and kept quiet,thinking "What can I do to help?" but still nth come across my mind...haiz...really wished that i can be better so that i won't trouble anyone and also at least can be of a little aid to the team. Well... hope the upcoming days will be better for me bah. I killed a Hollow at 12/01/2007 |
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